There are many times I wished I was dead.  I am not ashamed to admit it. And most of the time I wish it when I was very down and I couldn’t turn to anybody. I remember it and it was a very unhappy feeling. I never want to go back.

My life started to change when I guess, I “attracted” to come into my life the no.1 Nutrition Company in the world. I was very down then. The only one “thing” where I get my confidence collapsed in my face and everything was a mess. I don’t want to live on. I wished then, I was dead for the nth time. But I guess, I am not meant to leave this world yet. Because after I wish it, I quickly change my mind and think of something else. But I can feel something different at that time. I was wishing it constantly and even got to think of what ways could I kill myself! That’s when I panicked and really asked for something, someone to save me. I need to get hold of myself.

Now, I am very happy! I couldn’t explain it! With the help of new friends, in 6 months, my whole life changed forever. And the sad story became a powerful testimony.

Now, I’m living life, one step at a time. But soon, I’m looking forward in running with it.

This is my second time to write about “Law of Attraction”. My first was on my former blog which unfortunately was “dismantled?” (another way of saying it was destroyed and its my fault \o/) . I have been out of my mind this past few days and I was pondering on things and found out that I am not really getting this “secret”. So, to refresh my memory, we purchased the video again and tried to practice the law of attraction. 

So what is this law of attraction? Basically, the law attraction says that positive thoughts attracts positive thoughts. When you have negative thoughts, you just turn it into a positive one. Ignore the negative thought. The more you think about the negative thought, the more you fuel it and it “clings” to you. So the best thing to do is ignore. And fuel the positive thoughts more.

Its also says that Life is like a genie, you have to ask what you want and it shall be given to you. All you have to do is ask, recieve and align. Simple as that.  

Kinda radical, new-age thinking, don’t you think?  Actually, no. Its being used since the first of time and people are not sharing this because they want to control people. Hard to believe? Not really, if you think about it. And there’s more to the law of attraction than this. I’ll write more about it soon. 

I’ll be honest and just write my heart out. Right now, I am a little down as I don’t know the answer to a certain problem I have. I couldn’t help it. I don’t want to think about it because the more I think of it, the more I attract the negative thing it brings. And right now, I think and feel I  have to let it go. Its too much for me. I am feeling sad and lonely and a lot of things that I don’t want. I want to focus on what I want. And I shall get it. I sound like a “bratinella” that I insist that I get what I want. Its the law of attraction. I’ll write more about this “Law of attraction” thing soon. Right now, the reason I am writing a journal is because I need to gather my thoughts and feelings (I am reading a Jim Rohn’s book). I need to sort it out through this so I will be able to focus on more important things.

This entry is just a glimpse of tofubaby. Why I call myself tofubaby? I’ll write about it also sooner or later.